Bad Days

Everyone has bad days, and lordy lordy today has been BAD. I got into a fight with my boyfriend, but even before that I woke up feeling miserable. My schedule is the same week after week. I don't really have hobbies, apart from just recently getting into gardening. My Fall classes don't start until the end of August. My boyfriend's work schedule sucks and we only have one shared day-off during the week. And don't get me wrong, I am very thankful that we get that day together, but when it is your only full day together we feel like we have to cram so much into it that we end up stressing each other out and getting into an argument.  My other days off are filled with "what should I do today?". I am in the process of finding a home to move into so I can move out from my parents house. But I don't know when that will be! I have boxes of packed-up items just waiting around. I wish I could get my room more organized but I feel so on the fence. When are we (my boyfriend and I) moving? Will it be in the next few months, or a year? Should I pack everything up? Or should I wait until we actually have a place and then start up the process again????????? I just don't know! And everyday my walls seem to grow smaller and smaller as if to say "GET OUT! YOU HAVE WAY TOO MANY THINGS IN HERE". 

I want to try different hobbies, like jewelry making, arts and crafts, furniture painting, etc. But there would be NO WHERE to put them! I don't want to add more to the piles. I can't!

So here I am, in my room, angry at my boyfriend, bored, claustrophobic, and feeling sorry for myself.

Maybe I just need to workout.... that might help. *End Rant* 
Hopefully whoever that fuck reads this is having a better day than I am.

-K.N

Gardening; The First

Oh would I, could I, have a garden?

Recently, over the past 8 months or so, I have become very interested in gardening. I have not the slightest clue what I am doing, but oh my! I love this thing called gardening! I started with a little Pinterest researching(https://www.pinterest.com/), some how-to's and what not to do's and then I jumped right in! I thought I should start with some veggies, because not only do I want to grow a beautiful flower garden, but I want an edible one too! So I went to my local Nursery and bought Yellow Squash, a hardy Lettuce, Jalapenos, and Baby Carrots. I was able to start them all from seeds and got them all spouted! I was so happy!  I got them all to the size recommend before I replanted them into bigger pots. I placed them outside after the "last frost" and I waited. Then we had an unexpected frost that killed my squash. Then slugs got to my baby carrots. They died a sad death. But this is not a tearful story. A few months later and my lettuce is growing like crazy! And the Jalapenos are very slow growing plants, but they are getting bigger and stronger everyday! I keep them in a bright, sunny window so they can get all the heat they can, since they are grown in very warm climates. I also am the proud owner of a dwarf Meyer Lemon Tree, a Jade plant, Rose Bush, Succulents, Hydrangea, and purple Petunias! My next step will be to build some raised beds (Jeff, please help) to get some more veggies planted for the winter. I've read that late summer is a good time to start tilling and fertilizing your garden for wintertime. You have to prepare the soil so its chock full of nutrients to grow those lil' babies! Will let ya'll know about those raised beds....(again....JEFF) 

If you like something, do it! I didn't have a clue where to start with my gardening but I jumped in because there was literally nothing to loose.

Get messy, Get Dirty, Get Gardening!

-K.N.

Welp...

Welp, here we are over a year later. My last post was on June, 27th 2014. I am the ultimate procrastinator and I tend to give things up all too easily. This past January I interviewed for my first second job, which was pretty exciting. Right up until I figured out hated it. It was a catering job and my bosses knew when they hired me that I had NO experience in the field. I was expecting to be trained a little on the tasks I would be given but instead I was thrust into the job without any knowledge of what I was doing, armed with only the words of my boss,"oh , just use common sense, you'll do fine". That was no comfort at all. I needed lists of things to do, with directions and times to have them done by. Not flighty words, with little to no meaning for someone new to the field. Basically what they wanted for me to do was interpret what the needed done. My brain DOES NOT WORK THAT WAY. I was employed by them for a total of 6 months, but really only worked for them 3 times. THREE. OVER THE COURSE OF SIX MONTHS. I could go on and on with the issues I had with that job, but I'll end my lil' rant here.
I guess the point of this was to convey to myself,(since literally the only person reading this is me) is that you should always try to do what makes you happy. Why waste your valuable time doing something that doesn't spring you out of bed every morning? I didn't feel happy working for that company, and even though conflict makes me queasy, I still bucked up and gave my notice of resignation. It made me sad, because I truly wanted to enjoy it, and then it made me angry that my bosses weren't all they said they were. But now I know what I don't want out of life. I want to have fun, I want to be my own boss, and set my own rules.

As I proof read this, my rant certainly sounds like I'm a pretentious, whiny,asshole, with no hard-work ethic. I'm sorry if I come off that way. But the way I see it is, most people spend years working a job they hate just to get by. They waste their lives away, and die unhappy. The way we live our lives is a choice. No one can choose a path for you. I want to wake up excited to start the day, and that job didn't give me that feeling. And so I continue on my path. Plain and simple. :-)

-K.N